He was holding his little suitcase with both hands. His fingers trembled. His legs shook from standing too long. And yet, somehow, he still managed a small, polite smile, like he was trying to be good so no one would be upset with him.
“You’re just… leaving him?” I whispered.
Lila let out a sharp breath. “You don’t understand. The doctors. The therapy. The bills. It never stops. I’m exhausted.”
Then she lowered her voice, as if speaking quietly made what she said next less cruel.
“I hate this life. I want something normal.”
Evan stiffened in my arms.
As if she realized she had gone too far, she added quickly, “You’ve always loved him. You’ll do better than me.”
She set his suitcase on the pavement, turned around, walked to a waiting car, and slammed the door shut.
The engine started.
And she drove away.
She never looked back.
I stood there frozen, holding a confused little boy as the car disappeared down the street.
Evan buried his face into my coat. His small body shook.
“Auntie,” he whispered. “Where is Mommy going?”
I dropped to my knees, my legs barely holding me.
“I’m here,” I told him. “I’m not going anywhere.”
I did not know then how hard it would be to keep that promise.
I only knew I meant it.
I was twenty-seven years old.
Single.
Broke.
Living in a cramped one-bedroom apartment with mismatched furniture and a paycheck that barely covered rent.
I had never planned to raise a child.
I had certainly never planned to raise a child with special needs.
But Evan needed someone.
And I chose him.
The first year was pure survival.
I learned how to lift him without hurting his hips. I learned how to help him dress without making him feel helpless. I learned how to cook meals that worked with his therapy schedule and his energy levels.
I memorized medical terms I never wanted to know.
I filled out paperwork that made my head spin.
I sat in waiting rooms for hours, pretending I wasn’t scared.
I worked two jobs. During the day, I waitressed. At night, I cleaned office buildings long after everyone else had gone home.
When Evan finally fell asleep, I studied online courses about special education and disability support, fighting to keep my eyes open.
Some nights, I cried silently in the bathroom so he wouldn’t hear.
I was exhausted.
I was overwhelmed.
And yet, every morning, Evan smiled at me like I was the best part of his day.
He never complained.
When other children ran past him at the playground, he clapped for them.
When strangers stared, he smiled back.
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